in saecula saeculorum `the real enchante

2008-06-01T19:37:00.002+08:00

When she walks away from you madly
[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth
[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you
[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you
[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet
[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ tell her you love her and she still looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying
[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking
[ approach her..give a kiss on the cheek. ]

When she's scared
[assure her you're not going to leave her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder
[ tilt your head too..and hold her hand ]
When she steals your favorite hat
[ let her keep it]
When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]
When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]
When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]
When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

Stay on the phone with her even if
shes not saying anything.

When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

Tease her and let her tease you back.

Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

Give her the world.

Let her wear your clothes.

When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

Let her know she's important.

Kiss her in the pouring rain.

When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"

2007-12-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

rubbish sia jamie lynn spears' preggers.wth at 16 years old.

really mess up man wen u hear tings like dat..friends of mine younger than me having had two abortions already, another who has her own sex video except its not in her hands...

to P.O.D's youth of a nation.

WE ARE WE ARE ALL...
GOING TOOOO HELL!!!
WE ARE WE ARE ALL....
GOING TOOOOOOO HELL!!!!

2007-10-21T04:28:00.000+08:00

back on the 25th of november.

2007-09-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

irrevocable.
a notion of such crushing,definitive finality that to me it might as well mean the end of the world.

a sorrow so powerful that i stop crying and try to hold still against the pain.
i desperately wanted time to stop,to hold it still with the force of my will.

a severe attack of nostalgia, or more so something that could add to nostalgia the tonalities of sadness and longing.

shades and degrees of this feeling engulf me.swallow me.
like a visitation from a whole new dictionary of emotions, an annunciation of how much an absence can hurt.OR a premonition of absence, because at this divide i am filled to the brim with what i'm about to lose.

what lies ahead-an enormous,cold blankness/a darkening and erasure of the imagination/the shutting of a camera eye,the covering of the future with a cold wet blanket.

2007-09-19T02:54:00.003+08:00

ur dam f upppp...just tink hu u r.just tink of sentosa,dats all.....cos i dun tink ur dat capable of tinking.......

2007-09-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

i miss hwachong.dam sad i cldnt make it for maf.sigh everyone has forgotten about me.

2007-09-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

The waves are crashing
Constantly.
Just like how my heart beats,
Longingly.
The winds gifts to the shore
Unknowingly.
And i find you in my heart,
Tragically.

tekong was a really emo trip,the body gets exhausted to expiration and yet the mind wanders,in exploration...the recesses of the brain where i have stowed away memories unwanted.

really proud of my sister's acheivement:)

2007-08-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

i cant do it la.urgh.im deceiving myself.

anyway its very heartwarming to see mike owen back.i hope he wun waste any more of his career thru injuries.poor dude.miss him like crazy...
torres can b a substitute...wen i see him i feel rather happy.
BUT HE CAN NEVER REPLACE THE VOID LEFT BY OWEN IN MY HEART NO MATTER HOW GD HE IS BCOS THEY ARE JUST DIFFERENT AND UNCONCIOUS COMPARISONS BETWEEN THE TWO IS NOT HELPING.I CAN NV FORGET THE HAPPIEST TIMES WITH OWEN.
but torres is gd.and i support him.my 2nd choice,after michael owen.

foff

2007-08-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

i just cant talk to u.anymore.its too dam bloody difficult.

2007-08-18T04:21:00.001+08:00

it was supposed to be a friking friking happy day.

i could never forget your back view.

2007-08-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

liverpool has given me something to be cheerful about again.of course there is another factor,an amusing idiot.HAHA
anw really have high hopes for liverpool tis season.incidentally hai she supports liverpool too.
ok nvm oya and i can finally stop being a closet newcastle fan i tink haha bcos newcastle gave geordies some early festive cheer yesterday by whipping bolton.just cnt wait for owen to be back.i love him so much,i feel so sorry for him...
OWEN viduka smith MARTINS DUFF dyer GIVEN TAYLOR butt GEREMI solano...amazing really on paper.

GERRARD TORRES kuyt riise CARRAGHER finnan REINA babbel kewell MASCHERANO ALONSO agger...wah lan eh seriously dam gd.

2007-08-11T16:25:00.000+08:00

i just successfully read harry potter 1-6 in 2 weeks and now im going to embark on the 7th book.i hope its real good.

there are moments when u just cant put on a front anymore,one of my bros yesterday said hey r u ok?cos ur behaving like the real andrew...and then wed nite aso...i tot they were gone so i allowed myself to put my head down on the table to depress and deflate for a moment or two but i din noe that they were just behind.and they is not really they.

never have "thanks" been so cruelly used so hurtful.

thanks alot dude up there.having a gd laugh?

2007-07-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

Seriously.
what the odds man.
give me 4D also not so zhun.
more than 6million people in Singapore.
at least 5000 at MOS.

Cliche to say I never felt nothing in the world like this before,
But now I'm missing you and cried more tears than i have my life that's true.
I even had to walk away from you to hide the tears the could hold back no longer.
I'm wishing that you would come back through my door,
I know its too late
But now I'm all alone,
All alone since you.
Girl please stay please come back PLEASE give me a chance.
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face,
Even right now right this moment.
Why did you turn away?
Why do you immerse in the company of others,
Amidst other people's laughter and not together with mine.
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
You say its love you're afraid of,
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside.
This is not how you wanted to be.

It's been a long time since you called me.
Or even textd me.
How could you forget about me?
Have you?
You got me feeling crazy all again when I thought I was but a shell.
How can you walk away,
And let everything remain this horrible way?
I just don't know h*ney,
What will it take to make you come back?
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that.
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me.
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was.
A piece of heaven in a corner of my mind.
If you give me a chance I can love you right make it right.
But your telling me it wont be enough,

Baby I will wait for you,
Cause I don''t know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,
Baby I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine it just aint true.
I really need you in my life,
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you.

I'll Be Waiting.
Even if it is the last thing I do.

and jack and jill had to be 2 people on the same guest list of 30.

2007-07-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

ive held back so long,there's an overflow.
its been 7 days,i can't hold back anymore.
i gave way,the gates gave way.
onrushing...violent even,spasm causing.

2007-07-22T05:28:00.000+08:00

the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.what if i could undergo the same radical treatment and erase particular parts of my memory?

i would never give the green light cos i dont want to forget ur voice,ur laughter,the charm that makes it so easy for people to talk to u.the walks and rides home.how u think im a fool.how i think ur fat but i just find u sooo adorable.the way my backaches when we dance cos ur too short.the way we met,the way we parted...
it hurts.
but i deserve it.

goodbye sam and lesley and justin in advance.

sometimes im at crossroads,i like to keep my blog private and diary-ish but then i put out msgs and shout outs to people.i am one big contradicktion.

2007-07-21T03:06:00.000+08:00

i once met this superb singer.two years back.it coincided with the period when i was together with hanyan.his name is ngak and he is marvelous i tell u.he's also a songwriter who have had his music sung by singers like ke you lun.
anw we lost touch shortly after hanyan left for uk.so its been like two years and today,lo and behold.i met him at timbre when i went to find jem and join his friends.brot back lots of happy memories when his used to sing all my requests and dedications for hanyan.and these memories hurt terribly now.and today,he sang our (me and hanyan) song.

last nite wen she left,the band was singing their last song.and for some f up reason...it was our (me and hanyan) song too.

tis is going out to my brother of a different mother.well different father as well la.
hey man u noe who u r,keep ur spirits up cos ur not one to leave ur head down man.u noe i got ur back and u noe i love ya.

2007-07-20T02:19:00.000+08:00

have u ever felt like reading harry potter 1-6 in anticipation of harry potter 7?
AND THEN U SUDDENLY STOP.
because the author is involved in a scandal or someting.
haha
is dat how im feeling now?
NO
but im giving up.how do u put it...
no way man.
lets just say ur using an ancient radio player.and u keep trying to tune in to a particular channel.say 987....but no matter wat...u just cnt tune in....

remember...lol no more here on my blog but trust me it still haunts me.

you know i can't smile without you

2007-07-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

we meet different kinds of people each and some people just disgust us right from first sight but let us all be nice and accomodating because life's just such a fragile thing.cherish not just the people around but cherish humanity.
before its too late.

in memory of donald,the nsf who comitted suicide,robin's aunt and luah's distant relative.

remember the first time they saw u wen i introduced and that was the first time we all had din tgt at ulu pandan there the seafood place.it was such a funny memory but now i just cant laugh about it by myself.

2007-07-15T05:39:00.000+08:00

i swear to god dude u gota change or ur gona lose all ur frens man.dun wana dwell on it anymore gona forget abt everyting wen i wk up.

anw sometimes,wen i look at U...and i suddenly smile...its not cos im creepy ok haha its just dat i find u immensely beautiful...man.im torturing myself haha

i remember when the 2nd time we met,the friday after we first met...and i walked to ue sq to bring u arn to riverine...ur mum dropped u off there i still remember.man,it was the first of the happiest days of my life.

2007-07-13T02:08:00.000+08:00

i believe i hv never felt tis way b4.lol its horible.and its eating me away.slowly.or quikly wateva.like the tumour that just consumed donald.cbc bowler.lets take a moment to pray for his ascent and let us all wish his family all the best.just 20 y old man.i m so affected bcos 2 of my gd friends were mean to him,and they are crying now.so lets take tis moment to b humiliated,to b sincere.

don't take too long to say "i love U" to the one you love, cos time has a habit of slipping away.

i remember when u introduced me to ur mum and i was so shy and so afriad..lol afriad of wat she wld tink of me.it turn out rather alrite that little event...ur mum was very kind:)lol

2007-07-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

im gona start blogging liao..
anw folks i lost my hp.so u cant contact me.nv realised how many people's numbers i remember sia..my bros foong jeong jem pek luah etc...sis like les and 3sa...
the one number that i cld remember even tho i hv not dialled it for 2 years...
9821**** well so wat if i remember it?she nv picks up.
i actually got almost drunk yest.and was my usual emo self.which i m sure everyone hates.but i cnt b happy wen im sad.that is just too horrible...like i tried to tell yixin a joke yesterday but i almost cried.

i remember the first time we met and u told me u were to leave in less den 3 months...and i told u these words just so softly "don't go.."

2007-05-17T23:16:00.001+08:00

The perfect words never crossed my mind, Cuz there was nothin' in there but you.I felt every ounce of me screaming out, But the sound was trapped deep in me.All I wanted just sped right past me, While I was rooted fast to the earth, I could be stuck here for a thousand years, Without your arms to drag me out. There you are standing right in front of me All this fear falls away to leave me naked, Hold me close, cuz I need you to guide me to safety.No, I don't want to wait forever In the confusion and the aftermath, You are my signal fire.The only resolution and the only joy,Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.No, I don't want to wait forever.

i always tot that maybe/just maybe...i might appear in court one day as a lawyer.i do talk cock quite well.but alas,my first time in court was as....

sigh
hate my emo course mates in camp who everyday sing emo sings and make me emo.
roar.

2007-05-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

2007-05-06T04:53:00.000+08:00

i have been burdened by my new year's resolutions.i hv adhered to them thus far but it has caused me to be extremely emo.
im always deep in thought,brooding because of imposed self control and discipline.
the old andrew was great fun,the current andrew is a bother.
emo

2007-05-01T16:54:00.000+08:00

wah last week go blood donation,so lucky to get a dam chio nurse to suck me i mean suck my blood i mean...nvm
haha her name is ko yi ru
dam chio and den i asked her to be gentle...and she smiled at me and said alright i will:))))

heh
gona watch spidermanIII later...hope its good.

i need a liverpool victory to brighten up my life.glad owen is back:D

yesterday```

2007-04-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

one of the worse days of my life

2007-04-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

TODAY I SAW THE CHIOEST FEMALE OFFICER EVER!i tink she is a medical officer.2 bar...abt 20 yo.wah dam chio dam hot.her name tag reads T S TAN..tan tock seng sia.haha
dam hot
den i salute her and say good afternoon ma'am den she smile and say hellooooo.....

hahaha anw congrats to ashley on passing her driving test.first try somemore...zai.

i wanna b posted to kranji camp man....lol~

ggGG

2007-04-16T00:02:00.001+08:00

HOWIE HENG IS DICKHEAD.

2007-04-08T08:41:00.000+08:00

The song goes... Guard duty, sibei jialat.

And i AGREE.
bloody hell just finished my guard duty.on a bloody saturday.24 hours!no more...730am to 830 am...grr

im so tired now,that im not tired because i am running on spare battery and i need to deplete it first before i like just collapse.
guard duty makes u smelly and itchy and dirty and disgusting.

call me prowler tan.i ensured that each on of you could sleep safely and soundly at home by surveilling the surroundings and together with my rifle and my buddy and me,we were menacing enough a deterence.

turn out turn out!bloody hell.

goodnight peeps,at 9am sunday morning rain is falling.

2007-04-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

wow its been long man...

duno where to start.shant talk abt army life even tho it rocks haha

i wanna sign on and be song i/c ;)

anyway i just experienced smtng freaky man.
i was searching for the song sway so i went to youtube.while it was buffering howie gave me a link to a maxim girl - charlene who happens to b jeong's classmate so i just clicked on it.den i was on youtube waiting for the vid to load and play and suddenly sway started playing
!!!???
turned out it was charlene's friendster's music! how cool and coincidental is dat?

haha im dying,i have something stuck in my oesophagus since last friday and it hurts like mad.

Don't strayDon't ever go awayI should be much too smart for thisyou know it gets the better of mesometimes, when you and i collidei fall into an ocean of youpull me out in timedon't let me drownlet me downi say its all because of youand here I go...losing my controli'm practicing your name so i can say it to your faceand it doesn't seem rightto look you in the eyelet all the things you mean to metumblin' out my mouthindeed its timetell you why say its infinately trueCHORUSsay you'll stay, don't come and golike you dosway my way, yeah i need to know, all about youand there's no cureand no way to be surewhy everything's turned inside outinstilling so much doubtit makes me so, tiredi feel so uninspiredmy head is battling with my hearta logic has been torn apartand now it ohhh so sourcome sweeten every afternoonsay you'll stay, don't come and golike you dosway my way, yeah i need to know, all about yousay you'll stay, don't come and golike you dosway my way, yeah i need to know, all about youit's all because of you...it's all because of you...and now its ooohhh so sourcome sweeten every afternoonits time totell you why say its infinately true

130pm pasir ris interchange.

2007-01-26T02:03:00.000+08:00

I will be shaven like a sheep with what they call number one blade.

I will be cussed at and insulted like a worthless piece of shit.

I will be lonely and homesick because I am all alone in a foreign place.

I will miss you you and you.(my family la...)

I will be raped in the a-hole by some desperado shithead gay in the shower.

I will be having lousy food as if the taxpayers' money are not enough to afford better.

I will be shivering at night suffering like an alcoholic on cold turkey.

enough!

I will survive and cyall in 2 weeks!:D

to-dos

2007-01-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

I am going to write a list of to-dos before i enlist.
its really nearing now and each time i think about it i get a very wierd sensation going through my body.okay let me rephrase that.each time i think about it i feel wierd.like duno wat to think or do about it. lol

so here's my to-do list.

Eat as much good food as i can before i enlist.

-claypot laksa
-en dining
-cuscadan wings
-holland v curry noodles

Cherish and meet up with all my friends.

that is quite impossible la but pls call me out for coffee or tea or me!

Spend more time with my dear parents and sister.

like maybe at least 3 meals tgt this week.wake up earlier,watch chinese dvds tgt or something.

Go back school maybe twice and chee hong some young gals.

Mambo?

not really.

Take more fotos of me still with hair!!

That's all i can think of so far...wat else shld i accomplish b4 friday ah...hmm

cho cho

2007-01-19T04:02:00.000+08:00

haha tdy went to cho cho.tuesday aso.pek and i secret code for ahem is 'ur laobu ah!'

lame.

anw i was tinking...cos ive been dam intolerant of girls and their inadequacies lately...so erm

iss it true love when u find the girl crying in front of u so beautiful at that moment?

or is it just kirsten kreuk as lana lang?

tings i have done

2007-01-18T03:27:00.000+08:00

its been a while.
been to hongkong,vomitted from midnite till 7am cos of foodpoisoning,chillax with old peeps,play at the cage every week,undergo lasik surgery,went back to school.
just a few things ive done this 2007.still haven gotten down to hanging up the new year's calendar of course.should i hang the maxim or the fhm calendar.i cnt decide...

enlisting on the 26th!time's running out for me haha

looking forward to my farewell party~!

im leaving on a jet plane~

2007-01-03T04:05:00.000+08:00

please visit www.zorpia.com/saecula

anyway im flying to hongkong!anybody wan edison chen or twins?i myself gona get christy chung babeh

have a wonderful 2007!

Chapter 21

2006-12-31T18:30:00.000+08:00

this is rubbish,google just wasted 15 minutes of my life as they forced me to use the new google-blogger thing.
now i am entitled to use other google services...WOW

2006 is ending,which means a third (if im lucky) of my story has been written.
everyone's got a story,and i always ponder over others'.does the uncle who cleans and watches my apartment have a family?how is he going to spend this new year's?
what about the aunty that always collect my beer cans after i drink at kopitiam.how did she write her story?
everyone's the main character in their story,but seldom are they significant in others'...regardless of how inter-connected we are,we always kill off those characters we do not like without giving character development a chance.
at this point of my life the author of my story is having the dreaded writer's block.and every page every sentence is repetitive and tragic.i need a muse,a new character.can i be a hero?i don't know...

Chapter 21 : Coming of age? (lol lol)

how will the story go...

andrew-ness

2006-12-24T05:01:00.000+08:00

the ideals of a holiday could be fulfilled yet it could never be long lasting i believe.the hopes and even dreams in your sleep will never gain form.its over before it starts.

the holiday?

and just like dupree,i hope i can find my -ness.

ramlyramly~

2006-12-18T04:29:00.000+08:00

im gng to kl in 3 hours with most of ma bros im dam excited!~cnt slp
haha
gona hv so much fun there.anybody wan ramly burger?:DD

Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

white and nerdy

2006-12-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

i need a keychain for my new car key!!~
:D

porno mermaid

2006-12-13T14:44:00.000+08:00

haha i just realised something.for my bday i wished for some albums and LITTLE MERMAID.but i din get anything i wanted instead hongyao the idiot gave me three porn dvds.retard.
got alot of fotos to upload.soon.

go the below link.dam nice.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPJmCKTLV-A

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only one I'll need

In my life you're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one who's there for me

When I found you, I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid, without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free

When I found you, I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid, without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

DAM NICE.

4midable reds

2006-12-11T02:46:00.000+08:00

gone get liver failure man.
anyway great game for liverpool.
tis past 3 days nv go out.
dam broke since the real enchante suffered a loss.still investigating becos 1k is missing.
cnt wait for kl trip nxt wk.
cnt wait to drive agen.haven driven in 2 weeks.
just now play 2 person mj with my sis.dam fun la haha

im thinking of u```

2006-11-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

i m in a contemplative mood i declare.haha long have i passed the stage where i religiously read ppl's blogs.and i no longer chat normally (as in an msn's chatter's way) online anymore.i spend my time getting fat and looking for laughs.duno why im saying all these but just reflections i guess hmm im just wondering,how do u noe who's a true friend?who's a friend?wat abt someone whom uve nv met up with b4 sine the first time u met.is he or she a friend...even tho online chats are common.wat abt ex clsmates or schmates.each time u meet up agen after a long time,u feel all warm inside but its another half to one year b4 meeting up agen.somebody who u tok to almost constantly (in the form of sms,calls,in sch) for 2 months can just lose contact with u instantly for a month(and counting.)
lets get to the so called real bros now and real gd frens.u meet up at least once a week.tok at least 3 times week.wat if u dun go out with the group once,twice...lets say for a month and sort of nv tok as well.wat happens den?wld they stop calling u...?

i cant wait to watch my little mermaid man.balls i hv so many bday presents to buy.gona spend more than a hundred on 4 bros presents,i cant wait to start working at cuscadan!been watching my lovely sam-soon its daamm nice haha im a friking bimbo for liking tis show la.watch it on my sis' laptop everynite.

why is there always that one person on ur mind whenever u watch a show involving a romantic storyline?

pimp daddy

2006-11-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

i found tis pics on jorkster's blog.I LOVE IT!

2006-11-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

haha yest went to st.james powerstation at vivo there...not a bad place.got valet parking haha but i din tip the valet.
wah the place where we had our one buck beer is dam nice.its called en dining...the jap food is wonderful man an di drank like 10 mugs of beer which is like 10 bucks haha had a headache after that tho...asashi dry beer.

here are some fotos from the past few days

en dining..

sicc on sun (the day i chong chu jiang hu in bowling)

Tanako~

2006-11-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

haha last last nite a our pyjamas party (hahaa jk la it was just a stayover), my good brother's gal had a dream of me while sleeping with him..haha she dreamt that i was naked...all manly-ish (u noe wat i mean) and guys were coming to me like i was some sort of sex instructor...haha way to go andrew

anyway since i dyed my hair i changed my name liao.now i am known as Andrew Tanako!

steayd la haha had dam alot of fun since As...really love my brothers...and hoh is a nice person my impression of her has changed.haha hope my bros dun fight over ashley tho ahahaha
friday basically dyed my hair immediately after my paper.siang and den pek and den jem came over...pek is bloody vulgar i cnt stand it.den go riverine...den go pebble bay...drinks,dvds,supper...next day dvds,drink(me only-_-),soccer...den go mt faber...the best part of the 2 days was the dinner.we were really like one big family..the bros with their girls...cracking lame jokes...splitting cost for dinner.i was very happy.
loveyall.
gota get more fotos from the rest...-_-

tmr visit the pub oppo old madam wong's at ms between 6pm to 730pm and get friking drunk peeps.cos beer is going for one buck per mug!

aiii

2006-11-17T10:45:00.000+08:00

hahaha shit i just read a blog
"..shit its late its late...nothing happened rite...why is it late..im waiting...please hurry come..."

haha i duno if im the only one to get it but its dam funny...
tsk notti gal.

anyway today is my last paper liao!irritating la shld hv ended on wed...but have to waste two days of my partying life for tdy only an hour mcq paper.basket.

aii..this is well not good..as ali g wld say.haha everybody please go watch him and borat..
niiice.

http://hype.non-standard.net/track/185396 <---borat's hit single be my wife

tdy after my paper ill immediately go to shop for howie's jem's pek's luah's bday presents...den 430 got to die...dye hair i mean.after dat meeting siang ashley alex hoh jem at riverine...den tonite howie's party
shiokshiok

ORD OH! haha but i honestly wasted 4 years in hwachong.

2006-11-12T17:52:00.000+08:00

my lover alex

with my brother pek

tsktsk....

drunk lesbians ashley and sarah!

basket oni noe how to gamble...

pek's bday present!his boobs too big....

bros at alex goh's bday...

howie tried to ji hong ashley

As As go away.

2006-11-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

so many tings to do after As are over...spend more time with jessica,buy presents for my brothers jem pek luah...howie's as well.shopping...excercise...read all my novels...chng my car...

bday and xmas wishlist as of now:
clay aiken's new album
little mermaid original dvd
love asia dvd

anw i lost my tis month's fhm...i tink my dad stole it...

hongyao has a dam good riddle.

Better than God and more evil than the Devil.The poor have plenty and the rich need me.If you eat me you die.What am I?

.

2006-10-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

Emotions lay deep,
My surface - nonchalence.
Stagnant waters
That conceal the underlying.

Shadows and gloom
Your smile effaces all.
A convergence,
You and me a junction as one.

The stuff of dreams
Are only fabricated in them.
Hear my heart;
The affliction each time you hear his.

me and my kaka

2006-10-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

today a dam sad ting happened.my car got prob.and i called the tow truck.and i saw it being towed away.and im dam sad.

nuts

2006-10-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

hwachong pui

2006-10-08T15:43:00.000+08:00

lee sheng jie songs are nice.

anyway ive been taking me knee for granted for too long and i tink its deserving that i injured it again.not that serious but im in constant pain yest and tdy so maybe i can become a little fairer...everybody at maf kept saying how dark i was yest.o btw did i mention i hate maf?it was a very bad nite.im sick of maf im sick of hwachong im sick ppl around me that are shallow and just passing cloud that turn disappear and become downpours.

noticed a strange habit of people around me who for some twisted and mysterious reason pick up a slang suddenly when they speak to foreigners.my dad does it and alexius does it...to disastrous effect.tho i must say its dam amusing he doesnt noe it.wats with this phenomena?hmmm

thoughts and actions...

2006-10-07T00:22:00.001+08:00

are like heaven and hell.

and i got a pimple IN my nose that hurts like MAD.

nope

2006-10-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

The basis you need to know
if you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time
time will reveal

and so it is...

2006-10-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

i hate those moods.when ur shoulders feel so heavy.u just wanna walk away from it all.the past haunts me.the present mocks me.and the future...is gloomy.

the real enchante~

2006-10-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

rice~

2006-09-30T01:23:00.000+08:00

wat does 3 Fs stand for?

Friends Forever...something

I've Done 73 Out Of 125 Crazy Thing

2006-09-27T14:04:00.000+08:00

Level 1
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) done weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol

SO FAR: 5

Level 2
(x) been in love
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight

SO FAR: 8

Level 3
(x) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who
didn't have them
back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 11

Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone/something die

SO FAR: 14

Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of your
FRIENDSTER
friends
(x) been to Paris
(x)been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
( )thrown out for drinking

SO FAR: 18

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
( )been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 19

Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes
go by
( )made a snow angel

SO FAR: 22

Level 8
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
( ) played dress up

SO FAR: 25

Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 29

Level 10
(x) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

SO FAR: 31

Level 11
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer

SO FAR : 33

Level 12
(x) won a contest
( )been suspended from school
(x)had detention
(x)been in a car/motorcycle accident

SO FAR: 36

Level 13
( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x)had deja vu
(x)danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 38

Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 41

Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the world
(x)swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 46

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently coloured with crayons/colored
pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins

SO FAR: 51

Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you
wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came
out of
your nose
(x) kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 55

Level 18
( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x)watched the sun set with someone you
care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 58

Level 19
(x) crashed a party
( )have traveled more than 5 days with a car full
of people
(x) gone roller skating/ blading
(x) had a wish come true
( )Humped a monkey

SO FAR: 61

Level 20
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" at a football game.
[HAHAHA]
(x) swimming with dolphins

SO FAR: 63

Level 21
(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice
cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
(x) Sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 66

Level 22
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night

SO FAR: 69

Level 23
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had/been in a tree house
(x) aren't scared to watch scary movies alone

SO FAR: 72

Level 25
( ) believe in ghosts
(x) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes(in a
lifetime)
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail

SO FAR: 73

niice and not niiiice

2006-09-22T17:35:00.000+08:00

bloody reds

2006-09-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

deadly drogba kills off the reds.
its so sad.

anw been enjoying the hols...gona start real relaxing once tuesday's chem paper is out of the way.yay.

nacho libre

2006-09-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

oh my b-loody god.
i am seventy-four point seven k i l o g r a m s.
no more five-meal days and moremoremore excercise for me.

not niiice.

2006-09-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

the reds feel the blues.
bad luck.several comical mistimings and mistakes that definitely were due to internationals and injuries.and an over-enthu everton.

i feel sorry for reina.

i believe

2006-09-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

its down to the crunch time...when u find out who only care about themselves.and who has been treating u like an idiot,like a fool, and like a toy.

never knew gerrard was such a comedian

2006-09-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

'joke of the day'
by steven gerrard.

"Peter's goal record is frightening," said Gerrard. "I'm sure he was disappointed not to get another hat-trick yesterday.

"He is a great finisher. You know if Peter gets the right service he's going to put the ball in the net.

"The way he's going he's going to beat Bobby Charlton's record and I hope he does."

2006-09-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

i tink the notion no man is an island can not stand...
i believe deep down we are all alone.
i no longer believe in soul mates...not the lover kind but in general,including friendship kind.

i cant help reverting back to my cynic (true?) self every now and then.
u always raise ur hopes...big or small matter,but in the end u get disappointed.
disappointment won't kill me...not right away anyway...but mayb in 50 years time, when i leave this world a broken man.

photos from a v3x

2006-09-01T00:24:00.001+08:00

me and my *gf!
*GOOD FRIEND!

wally wanka

flies in a restaurant!
cover ur mouths!

drink and be bimbotic

bimbo and himbo!

coffee tee and mee!

guess who's this stupid mugger

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

alf was so bored she rusted

alex the fogger

masturbate some more la!

2006-08-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

procrastination is jus lik masturbation...u find out tt in e end,ur juz screwin' urself!!

handsome foto first....

now super ugly foto!recognise her?>hahaha

wan xin please dun kill me................................

2006-08-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

im so gona miss all the hot counter staff over at bbdc man...they were wonderful.always greeting me with a smile and super short skirts.

one more moment

2006-08-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

don't take too long to say 'i love you' to the ones you love,
cos time has a habit of slipping away.

the right thing to do is to seize every moment,cherish every emotion,live the life that you want.

we should say everything that comes to our minds,
use every brand new thing and not say 'save it for the future',
tell our parents 'i love you' everynight'...

BUT how many of us are doing this?how many of us have no regrets?
i don't want to die with regrets.
but im living with aplenty now.

and the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
just stay a little while and hear me say......

I found the love that I knew I had missed

2006-08-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

ive come to a conclusion.

life is all about IFs....and WHAT IFs....

what if my last girlfriend,hanyan...havent agreed to meet me 2 days later after we met at mambo?we wouldnt have got drunk and developed a crush for each other...i would have done better for my promos i believe....i may still have been a virgin...haha ok the last one was crap.

what if my friend's husband had not died in a car accident?she would be blissfully married to him now...i may have a few god sons and daughters...
life would be much simpler....

if i had not taken up bowling and gone on to excel in it...i would not have met my brothers.granted,i would hv a simpler and less colourful life...i may even be guai.and studious.

if i had gone to rj intead of hwachong?i would definitely not know like a 4thousand people or have 10 thousand people noe me.

life is not abt regrets tho i guess.since i am here now, and so are all of u...dun noe look back and say what if...of if blahblahblah...what if timmo is gona be prom king?haha i would laff my jack ass off.

what if i had not met you yesterday?i guess i would not have known today.

sunny island

2006-08-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

happy bday singapore!thnx for the long holiday ahead...and to all the ghost around now,have a gd stay:)

2006-08-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

just returned from helltrip

cigarettes and alcohol by oasis

2006-07-17T10:47:00.000+08:00

20 cans of tiger
12 cans of carlsberg
5 5litres heineken draught beer barrel
half a bottle of henessy
2 bottles of vodka
10 bei bei mian
20 indo mee
4 packets of prawn crackers
8 packets of other tidbits
1 carton of MML for 45bucks

i cannot wait to party.
tuesday night cuscadan patio
wednesday night riverine 10 year anniversary + mambo

food and booze...heavenly...
gotta attend takashimaya's food festival at b2

2006-07-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

v3x...
pink

many germs at the port

2006-07-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

please listen to ru guo mei you ni by karan mok

jiat money or pu lou ya ?
home ground advan or good coach and good actors?

juuust dun bet.

2006-07-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

just a random foto from the latest fone to computer pics upload.jeremy got drunk at foong's party abt 2 months ago and transformed into merlion haha

yes she caught my eye,as i walked on by...
she could see from my face that i was flying high~```

2006-07-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

cut hair today

h a v o c

2006-07-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

im dam sian.
just drank a whole lot by the pool

ultimate sian.just watched m-18 havoc tdy.sex put aside,it really hit home.

does anyone really noe me?

With or Without You

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Slight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied, my body bruised
She's got me with nothing left to win
And nothing else to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

listen to the version by keane...reminds me of a song i wrote a long time ago....
this song just ties you with it and you seem to live the song.

england are out

2006-07-02T01:56:00.000+08:00

most exciting 0-0 match ever...too bad england lost.sigh

gays spotted in hwachong

2006-07-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

bye`

2006-06-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

my dad's the handy man
my mum's the maid
im the trouble maker
my sis is the passive dunch care

moving house

here without you

2006-06-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

i realised alot of ppl,when they wanna jio somebody..they will ask me for nice smses...haha
u sluts out there...gd luck man.

anw i just managed to find out that paul twohill got thru the first round of SI2...hes my fav tis time round...at least so far la haha dam funny dude.anw i believe mediacorp is not updating and promoting enuff...unless im watching too little tv and reading too little newspaper...i noe im the only one who watched SI2 on wednesday...and i din hear anyting at all abt the results after the result show!basket...

2006-06-03T02:35:00.000+08:00

chrissy moran is dam chio

yew can do it - rob schneider

2006-05-31T23:18:00.000+08:00

all the while ive been trying to find van wilder 2...and i realised that its still being filmed and due to be released this year.but now im not so looking forward to watching it...cos its not really van wilder anymore but taj instead (kal penn's character who learns how to muff-dive from van wilder)
i like van wilder...gona miss him.seems like ryan reynolds who plays van wilder is quite a cmi actor based on no. of lead roles....o well
i just watched waterboy.its up there in the top 10 best movie ever for me.
deep meaning.moving and freaking funny especially farmer fran hahaha

so dark the con of man

2006-05-25T18:44:00.000+08:00

i just watched the da vinci code.
guess wat...i watched it with this ultra hot gal...she wore the shortest skirt ever possible...like from the tip of my thumb to the tip of my pinkie with my palm opened.
and its the flimsy kinda skirt.not demin.
and she zaogeng like friking a lot of times.
im sorry was dam turned on man...i mean im not sorry.

so da vinci code the movie rocked haha

die die die

2006-05-24T00:01:00.001+08:00

i guess things just built up and the stress had to released someway.
i thank those who cared.

anw tmr wednesday 24th may hcjc field world cup preview 69 stars V hci staff.
come down for the owning match and support the good lookers (me)
sadly i may become a referee cos of my ligamentless right knee.

sucks la.i wanna die.sorry bout' that.but honestly...yea

one more moment *edited

2006-05-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

i fought with my parents the biggest fight of my life.i screwed up my relationship with my parents.i tink this is it.i duno wat to do.i just wanna die.i swear to god.im crying non stop......

*edit(added):
don't take too long to say i love you to the ones you love
cos time has a habit of slipping away
out on a clear blue sky where lightning strikes on a sunny day
just take me in
and keep me from the rain

and the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
just stay a little while
and hear me say

that i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you

turn away to say goodbye
with each and every word that passes by
like a distant memory
and time keeps slipping away
and time will turn to grey
and time will be the one who holds you down

and the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
just stay a little while
and hear me say

and i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment

and i want you here tonite
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you

sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know what's wrong
and in the end it hits you hard
please tell me you'll be strong

sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know what's wrong
and in the end it hits you hard
please tell me you'll be strong

waste me away

2006-05-23T11:58:00.000+08:00

today has been depressing.my knee is still damaged,cant walk around properly unless i have the aid of crutches.tinking abt my re-injury,when i was writhing on the floor,some dicks kept talking rubbish like dun fake,tcs actor blahblah.that moment really sucked.i was on the verge of fainting perhaps...and in my ears i cld still hear those nasty remarks.i specifically noe one of these dicks who is from my class too but well...forgive and forget.
today i din manage to pass my driving test.a huge blow because i was really confident and i truthfully believe dat im more than capable a driver.sucks man....there was some rubbish noob who was driving dam slowly with his right signal on.the distance between me and him wasnt near so i decided to turn right myself...that bugger's lousy driving skills and the fact that while his right signal light was on and he eventually did NOT turn right caused me to fail.i hate him.dats 200 bux down the drain.i feel pathetic and loseristic.my dad said,"what's wrong with u...since u changed for the worse u could never succeed in anyting the first try."im a failure.
i wanna get gone.

mambo night andrew;

2006-05-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

Andrew's so funny he makes me laugh!
I haven't seen him in 430993083098908398032 years.
We are going for mambo soon.
He has a mundane life and is slacking while the rest are mugging for a levels.
I like to laugh at the gossips that he tells me.
We are laughing at the smallest thing.
Andrew is damn bad, just like me.
We are super mean people.
So that's just about his life!

vic.

fallin'

2006-04-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

about 24 hours ago i was feeling depressed.
i once said (actually it was only yesterday) , "depression is a vicious cycle..."

which explains why i needed to go out to release some steam.
been a long time since i really put forth in this space words from the heart...
i guess its time for me to focus on my career and studies now,minimal leisure...and not be bothered by words of others.

to digress abit,i find it shocking and disturbing that many females swear...since being a reformed ex-swearer (meaning i no longer swear), i get quite turned off when people produce profanities from the mouth just like how i produce gas from my backside (which is alot haha) i urge all my friends to cut down on the use of vulgarities:) it feels good!

2006-04-12T05:30:00.000+08:00

fun is devil's middle name

just a post...

2006-04-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

...with a sweet song inspired by no one.

I don't know how
I don't know why
But girl it seems
You've touched my life
You're in my dreams
You're in my heart
I'm not myself
When we're apart
Something strange has
Come over me
A raging wind to
Cross my seas
And girl you know that
Your eyes are too vain
And what am I supposed to do
(Supposed to do)
If I can't get over you
(Get over you)
I come to find that
You don't feel the same

'Cause I'm falling, falling
Girl, I'm falling for you
And I pray you're falling too.
I've been falling, falling
Ever since the moment
I laid eyes on you
Falling, falling, falling
(When I laid eyes on you)
Falling, falling, falling, yeah

I lose my step
I lose my ground
I lose myself
When you're around
I'm holding on for my life
To keep from drowning
In your eyes
Girl what have you done to me
To make me fall so desperately
To think that
I don't even know
Your name (no no)
And how am I
Supposed to live
(Supposed to live)
If I can't get over this
(Get over this)
You decide that
You don't feel the same
(Yeah)

'Cause I'm falling, falling
Girl I'm falling for you
And I pray you're falling too
I've been falling, falling
Falling
Will you stay or will you go?
Heaven
Heaven knows
What my future holds
Questions
Questions linger on my mind
Daybreak
Daybreak to dark of night
I don't know
What's come over me

Can't you see
I'm falling, falling
Girl I'm falling for you
And I pray
You're falling too, yeah
Falling, falling
Ever since the moment
I laid eyes on you

some more april fool's fotos with the gang and more

2006-04-08T04:03:00.000+08:00

wild nights

hot babes

2006-04-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

miss singapore

jamie yeo

some april fool's pictures...

2006-04-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

check out my golden gun

o no wat is jeremy doing!

had quite a fun april fools' :)

dam sian during physio today

2006-04-05T12:39:00.000+08:00

letter to CMPB

anndrew

2006-04-02T03:53:00.000+08:00

And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning

...

Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

i know i...was never serious.i don't know if i ever could be.but if i could,u would be the one i would take a shot at.

Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale

Come on..

mambo nights

2006-03-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

Oh my love, it's you and that i dream of
Oh my love, since that day
Somewhere in my heart i'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain

Doesn't matter what i do now
Doesn't matter what i say
Somewhere in my heart i'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain

2006-03-28T12:20:00.000+08:00

i took out of campus pass to come home early today.
i feel friking sick...i tink cos ive been drinking non stop since last wednesday.i have friking more alcohol den water inside my body i tink.getting alcohol poisoning.bloodshot eyes.stoned brain.lethargic body.dehydrated liver.over-used heart.

deep and meaningless

2006-03-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

i played mahjong from 12 am to 9 am....
im quite dead...just woke up after sleeping from 11am to 7pm.
is it true that i just wasted one day of my life like that?
-_-

"i don't know why i miss you so much
i don't know why i still feel your touch"
-rooster