I ended my brief affair/fling/experience/encounter with hookers or rather hooking today.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not one who visits whorehouses. I'm sure there are some clean ones out there willing so ya. JUZ KIDDING!
anw ya i meant hooking as in the bowling style...theres hook and spin..for those hu are clueless, for spinners, the ball spins on its axis as it travels down the lane...its path is more or less straight with a slight back up...as for hookers or hook bowlers, as the name suggests, the ball is rolling(hooking) and as it travels down the lane it will curve towards the right for righties and left for lefties...yup and spinners generally are more consistent with a 200 average whereas hook bwlers are erratic and can bwl a 160 game followed by a 260 game...but on a gd day they can produce averages of up to 240...
so..i am..or rather was...but am agen...a spinner...for the last three years...ive always topped the singapore schools selections to go overseas...but wen i go overseas representing singapore...i always fail to do my best...and even if i had did my best its highly doubtful dat i wld have qualified for the finals...hookers were bwling scores of 250!dats how much it takes to win a gold...dam...
so tis yr...after a final setback at the asian schs in hongkong...i decided...made up my mind to change to hook and start from scratch and sacrifice all my hardwork for the past 4,5 years?it was painful...many a night was spent staring at the sky...almost to tears...willing myself to make that decision...to gib up everyting..to succeed one has to make sacrifices...the road is never easy..quitting spinner was like tearing a part of my heart away...i have a very strong emotional bond to it and its just part of my part of my growing up?to me bowling is spinning and spinning is bowling...i nv tot one day wld come dat i mite take up a hook ball and bowl...but that day did come....i was tired of being a 'failure' at international tournys and part of me wanted to go to the national team (its agreed secretly dat hookers have as much as 5 times more chance to b in the national team den spinners)(theres is only ONE spinner out of like 10+ bowlers in the national team now) therefore i grit my teeth and silently announced to the spirits and watever dats arn me of my decision...
BUT there was one final thing i had to do before i carried out my treacherous task...the A DIVISION NATIONAL SCHOOLS..since i started bwling and i believe its the same for every school bowler..to win a gold in the national schools is the ultimate dream..or at least the first dream...as in theres international meets and open category and all but if one cant even perforn at a school meet wat more he expects?of cos i have performed...consistently got into masters finals...won silvers and bronzes over the years...but it was almost like a void lurking in me w/o that beauteous gold color metal to hold to feel to look at...i did win gold once...with my ri team we won the gold for quartet event...i was so happy so were my parents.they were really proud of me...i rem my dad lifted my up in the air..so embarassing haha dat was sec 3 or sec 4...cld have gotten more golds obviously but unfortunately both ri and now hc...arent exactly powerhouses in bwling....but the one medal i wanted most was individual gold...to get it wld b to mean that all my hardwork has paid off...to prove all my critics wrong and to repay all the faith my family and my supporters had in me...
june 19th..masters finals...the first step to qualify for the finals was already completed...b4 dat i got another medal..silver again...singles event...now for the most prestigious and exciting and highest level event....the top 10 bwlers sparred off one another...i actually won all my 10 games!unbeaten thruout and posting an average of 202...wasnt high but hey...im a spinner...and u ppl will nv noe the immense pressure out there...i daresay it was my best performance ever in the mental aspect...and after 10 games the 2nd pos. will face of the 3rd pos. and the winner will meet the champion (ME) i won dear joshua di for the 3rd time (SORRY!) and yes i won!!!im the champion!i got the largests trophy ive ever set my eyes on but FUCKING HELL HAD TO PRESENT TO SCHOOL TODAY COS ITS A CHALLENGE TROPHY BUT I FREAKING WON IT ALL BY MYSELF!!obviously im grateful for the support of my team membersya so i finally got a gold medal...smaller one la...but at that point when i won...it somehow dawned on me...mayb tis signals the end of the journey...my love story with spinner shld come to an end...the results have been produced and theres nthn more for me to prove or mayb nthn more i can achieve with spinner...there starts a new journey..with hook ball...and i can say ive come to love hooking tho it will never b as much as spin but theres a sense of attachment...but due to time constraints ive oni bwl hook for at most 20 times...and its a wonder i mastered my release so quickly considering i had coaching oni 3 times...and i was like hun shui mo yu the rest of the time..and yesterday i heard a fucking bad news that there will be combined schools selections on the 22nd and 29th...previously current asian schs team would be automatic through to the squad...yet there was a screw up tis time..and i oni heard tis news yesterday from an outside source wen letters have been posted to sch and im supposed to b notified!i haven been fyi and i duno all the details!how to bowl a competition dat i noe of so late and with so little time to prepare..wat if...wat if i know of tis selctions like oni next midwk...den i can kiss my last asian sch dream gd bye....previous selections tho i was seeded were still held in december...dis yr august WAT THE FUCK...tis has screwed up all my plans for studying...touch on that later...ya and i noe with my hook ball standard i still cannot make it yet...so i kissed the ball goodbye today...felt more den a tinge of sadness...mayb it was nv meant to be....and i took out my old spinner ball and smiled at it...i felt it smiling back at me too...i felt a surge of confidence and old comfort course thru me...i was jumping arn and full of excitement cldnt wait to bwl spinner straight away wen i reached the alley...yet wen i finally bowled...disappointment filled me...chinese i can tink of the word ju sang...sigh its like the feeling with ur loved one will nv be the same after u take up another lover and she finds out....why....it was all wrong it totally ruined my mood and wasted the sweet dream i had during my nap...i was so angry i took it out on my dad,mum,and someone...like it completely sucks and i tink i totally suck now and like i have 0 confidence of making it for the selections...it means so much to me...the reason i changed to hook was cos i wanted to perform at next yr's asian schs...the reason i changed back to spin was aso to qualify for the combined schs squad first...and one reason i was planning to study and pia for promos was dat to go asian schs next yr i had to have a sch i dint want to b forced to drop out dis yr and have my chance at glory next yr ruined....but now...if i dun make it for the squad...i noe i wun recover i wun b able to pull myself tgt to study.....promos in a month and 15 days...plus this two wks i gota train everyday to claim a glimmer of hope to enter the squad.....fuck it......fuck's returning back to me tis wk...sorry timothy but so many screwed up tings have happened...
anw if i ever did said any dirty stuff to any gal to tease u all im sorry...im making a vow here not to do dat anymore and if i happen to do dat to one of u pls gib me a slap...and to u noe hu u r....pls follow in my footsteps and stop being dirty to any gal liao...cos i finally got the feeling of wat's it like wen assies like u and me tok dirty to a gal i like....and worse was i wasnt there i cldnt do anyting or else i wld have punched a hole thru each of their faces...so ya...im gona stop if i haven't.....
to another u noe hu u r...i tink wateva happened may or may not b either my fault or urs but wateva it is lets forgive and forget and as i said friends forever
love each and everyone of u...