been resisting the urge the blog...forcing myself not to...all that i posted wld have been senseless shat...
first and most importantly...thanks to all hu have encouraged me in one way or another and thanks to all hu have wished me lucks...sorry either u ppl weren't sincere or im just beyond help such dat ur best wishes were of no use....
tis is it...two years gone of my life...two years spent in HCJC and ive no A level cert to show for...actually i do...does PW and CL (AO) count?as sian lye's teacher told her...i must have gone for lobotomy too....(an operation where a portion of the brain is taken out) and here i am...facing my life.my pathetic existence.i was writing a suicide letter after my maths on tuesday........dats how bad it is.lucky my parents came hm and i crushed up the paper....if they din come hm i mite have finished the letter.....and.....God knows wat cld have happened....my fate's in the hands of HC teachers now,in the hands of the Lord....im at everybody's mercy and i hv to get down on my knees soon...i duno wat to do anymore im emotionally drained and physically destroyed....ive no more feelings to feel anymore..
im sorry dad and mum.no son has disgraced and embarassed and dispppointed their parents so badly b4.im a record setting son.
sorry to my dear.im a useless piece of junk dats broken and useless oredi.mayb i always was.and i shld b unwanted and thrown away.
im sorry to my bros.if tings dun turn out well ive decided to b a recluse..i prob wun b able to play w u all anymore.
all my frens.samasama.
to my clsmates.have a great 2005 at HC:)
i got so much to say to so many ppl...im not gng to commit suicide or anyting but if tings dun turn out well i seriously dun wanna live anymore...i wun ever b able to hv fun or smile agen....i love all of u.
everybody has to face their consequences. wat u do will change ur life in one way or another.tink b4 u act. -advice from THE failure smile everybody...
i have so many regrets...